Wear it and spite the shaytan
My dear sister, the worries and fears in your mind are the whisperings of the shaytan.
He wants to talk you out of obeying Allah SWT.
It is very easy to keep going around in circles in your mind and to dwell on all the things
that could go wrong. I know that I myself have a tendency to do this, I put it off and I dither and I wait for "the perfect
time". If I let myself, I would never do anything at all!
So the thing you have to remember is that you do not need to be perfect in iman to wear
hijab. If perfection were a qualification, where is the sister who could wear it??
You must also not fall into the trap of thinking that you should wait until all your worries
and fears have disappeared. They never will! Trust me on this, sister.
True courage is going ahead to do what's right even though you are still nervous and scared.
So don't listen to the shaytan. Ignore the worries and fears he whispers into your mind. Tell him that you will not let him
keep you from obeying Allah SWT and you will not let him rule your life.